Ever get the feeling that you are missing in action? Like you are there but not really? I have been having those moments more than necessary here recently.
With everything going on in the world today, I am just floating through. Trying to accomplish all my goals and yet still provide for my family.
We in the PupHouse have had some major life events happen in the past few months and I have been lacking on my posting. I know it is needed to be done and I know people wait for these posts.
The oldest pup child moved out a little over a month ago. HE met a girl and decided he wanted to grow up and be with her. Due to life happeneing before they met, she comes with a toddler and one on the way. Neither are his, but he has decided to step into the role of dad.
This has led to the three of them moving back into our house and taking up resdiency in our now spare bedroom.
Was I prepared for all of this? No. Am I happy they are here? Of course. Am I completely presnt for all of this? Probably not.
I was not expecting them to move in but it beats them moving across the country to somewhere that my child has no life line that is close. Everyone needs a lifeline. Family that they can reach out to if something goes awry.
Having extra mouths in the house and extra noise makes being present even more necessary. Since the beginning of the year, I have gotten a new job which I LOVE. While it means I am not home like I was for the first few months of the year, I am not far away from home and can get there in a matter of seconds.
And now I am rambling. Trying to explain the why of me being Missing in Action. In all honesty, this isn’t the whole truth of why I am here but not here. I have a lot on my plate. The world is falling to shambles around us and I just want what is best for all of the people in my house. I am trying to build up a stockpile for the times ahead. I am also trying to get the puppy, Pup L to become accustomed to the concept of being in the camper and listening when called.
Speaking of the camper, I had actually gotten a second job for the summer and spent so much time away from home working 7 days a week. I felt like I missed my kids’ whole summer, which I actually did. It was horrible. When I made the call to stop working the second job, our life has taken off and I feel more present now than I have for the past several months.
I want to enjoy the little things and spend time with all those in my household. Am I still working 7 days a week? Sometimes but those times are few and far between and I always have the option to say no.
You never know what will happen and we all have those moments that we feel not present in our life. It is okay. We will become present again. Life will not continue to be so hard! We can make it through this!
